Sad Story

Hari senin 23/8/04 gw dateng ke pameran di wtc sudirman, gw sering pergi kesini krn Idha, my girlfriend, kerja di gedung sebelahnya metropolitan I, waktu gw sampe dr kantor ke situ, idha lg ngobrol ama mbak2 di salah satu stand tempat biasa dia belanja. trus gw samperin n kita pergi ke tempat jual parfum murah, terus sekitar 1/2 jam kmudian kita mo pulang, mo menuju kearah lift trus kita liat mbak2 yg jaga stand tadi lari2 gendong anaknya yg sekitar 3 or 4 tahunan ke arah lift n ninggalin standnya kosong, kita cuma liat dr jauh, krn merasa kenal, kita nungguin stand kosong tadi sampe dateng anak kecil sekitar 10 tahunan yg mungkin keponakannya, katanya dia disuruh balik jaga stand, ya udah kita tinggal standnya n pulang.

Trus besoknya stand itu tutup, hari rabu ternyata stand itu buka lg, Idha nanya sama mas penjaganya, mas kemaren tutup krn anaknya sakit ya? saya liat waktu dibawa bawa.
trus mas nya jawab oh nggak mbak, anak yang itu meninggal......

ternyata mbak2 itu yang punya bisnis, n anak itu sehat2 aja, kata dokter ia tersedak makanan tp gak ada yg yakin penyebabnya. and dia anak tunggal.

yg pengen gw obrolin tuh, as a parent, gimana yah perasaannya and gimana ngatasinnya ya?
yang pasti ini pukulan berat banget ya buat dia, anak yg sehat tiba2 dipanggil Tuhan hmm pasti marah bgt ya ama Tuhan. gw pernah denger quote that a parent should never out live their kids, its too painful. gw rasa quote ini bener banget.
moment kayak gini orang kalo nggak merangkul Tuhan, mungkin membenci Tuhan. as a muslim, gw diajarin untuk tawakal kalo hal kayak gini terjadi, Allah tidak akan memberikan cobaan diluar kemampuan ummatnya, tp apa gw akan mampu? who knows?
ada quote jg time will heal every wound, gw rasa time cuma reduce the pain, never heals.

So buat gw ini warning or diingetin lg kalo life is shorter than you think. makanya peluk orang2 yg lo cintai, tell them you love them NOW, and pray....

Talk about love

ever wonder what love is? Of course everybody had

Now my thoughts about love.

I never understand how come I can fall in love with one girl and not with the other, is it their look? Their smile or odor? I saw in discovery channel some show about love but still it doesn't satisfy me, or love is just a magic? I don't think so.

For me love begin when you want to belong to something, something other than your friends or family, that's why some people who were not married or in a relationship have a high sense of belonging to something else, like their job, their friends, their school, their family. These people don't need love, they already belong to something. Is it wrong not to love? Are these people sick? NO, its just that their expectation for love is a bit higher, they already belong to something why they want to risk that for love? They want something better than what they already have, they need better relationship with better partner. In a perfect world this would be easy to find but not in our life time. Your partner will make you sad and laugh and sad and happy, those who have serious relationship understand how hard it is to keep a relationship alive.
So why bother for love? If love make you sad, make you cry, make you wanna kill yourself, what for?

For me I need love to feel I'm alive, I want to feel sad, to cry, to be angry, to be happy, and many many more feelings that come with love, I wanna live. These feelings of course appears also in friendship or family or job, but its totally in different level. Love makes my life fun!.
But of course you need to fall in love with the right person, if not love will kill you slowly and painfully. This is the hardest part of love, to find the right one. Have I found the right one? Maybe. This is where your logic must win over your feeling, I learnt this the hard way. When you fall hard for someone, also think harder. There is no perfect partner, not even you.

So just hold your partner's hand and say let love be our vehicle to enjoy life and our brain as the break.

MY NEW CAR

Couple of days ago finally my new car arrived, its a spanking new silver daihatsu xenia. well after all my crazy journey with my old car, I said farewell to my old car. I've been trying to buy a new car since January this year, after some thinking at march I try to buy a new car. My budget only allowed me to buy something under 90 mil rups.

so I went to every dealership in town (okay I lie, actually only 2 places), first I try to buy Toyota Avanza, but the sexy lady at the dealership told me to wait more than a year before I can see the Toyota, SUCKS!!!. Maaann I want my car and I want it now!!!!. Later the sexy lady offered faster delivery with some extra cash, whoooaaah welcome to Indonesia.... Cash is king!!
Since I don't have the cash, I try to buy Daihatsu Xenia the Avanza's twin sister.

I went to the daihatsu dealership, I try to buy the same specs with avanza the 1300cc one, now the nice salesman with his kid (yes, he actually brings his small boy to the dealership) said that for that specs I need to wait for a year also!!!!! SUCKS!!. WHAT CAN I DO????.
Maybe I should buy a second hand car, but I want a NEW CAR!!!, and I WANT IT NOW!!!!.
Okay enough about the tantrum.....

The nice salesman with the kid offered me the 1000cc xenia which I can get in 4 month, but it doesn't have power steering. With Jakarta's crazy traffic jam, I want my powersteering. I finally give in, I'm buying the 1000cc Xenia. After pay the 2.5 mil down payment, I left with a smile.

JULY
this month I supposed to get the new car, but nnnnoooooooo.......
my new car is still a dream, seems nobody at daihatsu realized that I already book the F**KN' car 4 months ago. So every chance I got I terrorized the salesman with phone calls.

august
first week of august the salesman finally call, Hei we got your car!! I almost jump for joy, hurrah. "BUT " the salesman said, the color is different than you want also the specs is a bit different, THEN WHOSE F**KN' CAR IS IT???? Its a totally, well almost totally, different car, I want mine is champagne gold deluxe plus, they got silver deluxe standard and they tell me its MY CAR????
another tantrum episode, I ask the salesman, hey when MY CAR arrives? pause....pause...pause... I don't know sir, the salesman said.
MAAaannn this is a perfect example of small costumer get F**Ked by big corporation.
OOOOKKKAAAYYYY.... I'll take the silver one.......
When can I get the new car? Oh, in a week sir, if you pay 200 thou for the police you can get it in 3 days....(Another Indonesia tragedy episode)
NO ! I wont pay another dime, I'll wait....

AUGUST 19
Finally my new car arrived, I'll love it even its not the one I want,
Now I just worry how to pay the loan...
AAHHHhhhh life is wonderful isn't it..............